i don't really know what i want to say here.
but i'm feeling down.
what makes me feel worse, is that i start feeling guilty about feeling down.
as if feeling down isn't bad enough already.
and once i'm here, it just spirals. i start thinking about our money woes...our small apartment...my desire to do so many things but not knowing where to begin...
is it just because i want? is that where this feeling comes from?
i want more money? i want a bigger place? i want to create...to write...to have a clean apartment...
maybe that's what it is. but how do i change that?