Sunday, June 28, 2009

who doesn't love free things?

One of the best things about living in the LA area is that there's lots of things to do...and it seems like I'm discovering more and more of these things now that I'm a mom. Today, we went to the Ultimate Healthy Parenting Party at the Pump Station in Santa Monica. And almost every time we go to something like stuff. And not just any free stuff...GOOD free stuff.

This time, the two things that put me over the edge...a pair of BabyLegs (in navy, ribbed...perfect for leo!), and SoapNuts! Yay for SoapNuts! I've been wanting to try these, but was always a little hesitant. And here they are, just sitting in the swag bag...for free. I can't wait till it's laundry day :)

Thursday, June 25, 2009

the mom i want to be

We thought we had it all figured out. I’d stay home for the first couple of months after Leo was born. Then my husband, Brian, would take over for the next few months while I went back to work. Then…daycare. And we’d both be back at work.

But we just couldn’t do it. How could I drop him off with someone else? Let someone else take care of him? I wanted to be okay with it, but each time I thought about leaving him, I cringed. My friends do it…and their kids are fine. So why can’t I?

It just doesn’t feel right.

I want to be the one that goes to him when he wakes up from his nap, the one who sees the funny face he makes when he tries a new food, the one who helps him when he gets stuck standing up, and can’t figure out how to sit back down.

And so, here we are, 9 1/2 months after he was born…and I’m home with Leo…watching him giggle over and over again because I’m tapping his foot while he eats.

Now, THIS feels right.

Regardless of how hard it might be for us to make this work, THIS is what we’re supposed to do. Now I can be the mom I want to be.